Starting today...

What is it about self-doubt? Why do we often find ourselves questioning our own ability and taking the easy path out of fear? I thought about this today. I wondered about my three year plan. Why did I make it three years? I’ll tell you why, to keep me and my dream safe. To ensure I have two and half years to procrastinate and slowly make my way towards my dream and hope that all falls into place organically, all the while maintaining my current level of security. I did the same with my kitchen when we first bought our house – three year kitchen reno plan. It has been three and a half years.

So why do we not just dive in and follow our dreams? I often see people with a passion, a goal, a dream to be or do something they love, yet not a lot of action. I understand we need to plan; flying by the seat of the pants is just not conducive with a grown-up lifestyle of mortgage, school fees (and the rest) and mouths to feed. But when are we ever truly safe to just ‘be’? When do we reach a point where we no longer require more money? Do we ever reach that point? We get a pay rise, we spend more. We get a better job, we crave a better one. Where is the point where we stop and say to ourselves “I don’t need more money. I don’t need a better job.”? Well I can tell you. Today was that day.

I was driving home from work this afternoon and I started thinking about my plan, my three year, very ‘safe’ plan. What is stopping me from making it a six month plan? Fear. Nothing else but fear. I don't need funds to get my plan happening. I don’t need an office or space or anything other than my sheer drive and determination, my laptop (or failing that pen and paper) and direction, all of which I already have.

So, today starts my plan. I’ve already formulated a draft. I’ve listed what needs to be done, what I need to do it, and steps. That there, along with my can-do attitude, is my safety.

                               

Six months.

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