tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4399105551382451067.post6582412972065538326..comments2022-11-05T16:14:32.392+08:00Comments on cake crumbs & beach sand: Sorry for not being strongerPeggyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17598892582207477663noreply@blogger.comBlogger39125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4399105551382451067.post-1186991066706028352012-03-15T07:24:08.552+08:002012-03-15T07:24:08.552+08:00Oh Lynne, 23 days? Oh gosh. I'm sorry for your...Oh Lynne, 23 days? Oh gosh. I'm sorry for your loss and for your pain. I know it won't make it any less painful for you, but when you're ready, write your brother a letter. If anything it will relieve the words from your mind, even if momentarily. It's such a tricky and tough thing to deal with, there really is little comfort some days. I can say however although I think about it often, the pain does 'lift' a little over time. <br /><br />Make sure you take care of yourself Lynne. xoPeggyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17598892582207477663noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4399105551382451067.post-10621753279626488122012-03-15T04:23:33.535+08:002012-03-15T04:23:33.535+08:00Peggy you've managed to articulate exactly how...Peggy you've managed to articulate exactly how I'm feeling...thank you for that. My brother committed suicide 23 days ago and he's all I can think about. There are so many things I wish I could say and I'm sorry tops the list.Lynne Wilsonhttp://www.awenfarm.blogspot.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4399105551382451067.post-6939842204469673542012-02-26T14:54:56.604+08:002012-02-26T14:54:56.604+08:00Thank you Eccentricess. I'll take those hugs, ...Thank you Eccentricess. I'll take those hugs, they truly do help me heal. :)Peggyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17598892582207477663noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4399105551382451067.post-9985208074529745152012-02-26T14:50:46.032+08:002012-02-26T14:50:46.032+08:00It's a silly game to subject our souls to isn&...It's a silly game to subject our souls to isn't it Jayne? I know that rationally, but sometimes it still hurts to think about the 'what ifs'.<br /><br />I hope you find comfort too, thank you for your kind words. xoPeggyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17598892582207477663noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4399105551382451067.post-17142732328704285652012-02-26T14:48:59.315+08:002012-02-26T14:48:59.315+08:00Right back at ya Shar! xxxxxxxxxxRight back at ya Shar! xxxxxxxxxxPeggyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17598892582207477663noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4399105551382451067.post-33915732746093256792012-02-26T14:48:32.286+08:002012-02-26T14:48:32.286+08:00Thank you Kel, you're too kind. xoThank you Kel, you're too kind. xoPeggyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17598892582207477663noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4399105551382451067.post-29355154016758079452012-02-26T04:26:40.298+08:002012-02-26T04:26:40.298+08:00Tears are falling, I am so sad for your pain.
So b...Tears are falling, I am so sad for your pain.<br />So beautifully written, so emotive. *hugs*Eccentricesshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15350166822047688150noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4399105551382451067.post-14816704166876750282012-02-25T22:39:36.616+08:002012-02-25T22:39:36.616+08:00Thank you so much, Peggy... right now prayers and ...Thank you so much, Peggy... right now prayers and miracles are all we really need...Cindihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09520862122022663946noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4399105551382451067.post-13052570770428548192012-02-25T21:52:13.855+08:002012-02-25T21:52:13.855+08:00I live with the same regrets, Peggy.
Fifteen yea...I live with the same regrets, Peggy. <br /><br />Fifteen years later, I still play the 'what if' game.<br /><br />I hope your words help you to heal. Much love xJayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16744785002688814128noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4399105551382451067.post-66877922933333753562012-02-25T21:32:22.334+08:002012-02-25T21:32:22.334+08:00xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxMum on the Runhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16543791863884733714noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4399105551382451067.post-45768710147727349572012-02-25T20:13:24.054+08:002012-02-25T20:13:24.054+08:00I don't have the words, so I'll just say y...I don't have the words, so I'll just say your writing is beautiful xAnonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08881726731449136425noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4399105551382451067.post-77745699738719144452012-02-25T19:26:10.608+08:002012-02-25T19:26:10.608+08:00Thank you Deb, I feel the cyber hugs from here!
...Thank you Deb, I feel the cyber hugs from here! <br /><br />It is hard to give up, the regret. Sometimes when I think about it I know the regret is not rational, but in my heart it still hurts. There will always be 'what ifs'. Stupid what ifs! <br /><br />Thank you for your kind words Deb. xoPeggyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17598892582207477663noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4399105551382451067.post-76535164299524269362012-02-25T19:23:41.905+08:002012-02-25T19:23:41.905+08:00Thank you Lyndal. It was strange how the words jus...Thank you Lyndal. It was strange how the words just came pounding out once I started. Very cathartic, although sad. As I re-read it almost hurts less, so it must be healing in some way. :)Peggyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17598892582207477663noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4399105551382451067.post-9497753555347908602012-02-25T19:22:30.641+08:002012-02-25T19:22:30.641+08:00Thank you for reading and leaving me a note Sharro...Thank you for reading and leaving me a note Sharron. xoPeggyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17598892582207477663noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4399105551382451067.post-73202297238592137412012-02-25T19:21:10.975+08:002012-02-25T19:21:10.975+08:00You are so right, spot on. I guess I do truly beli...You are so right, spot on. I guess I do truly believe I couldn't have done much more, the choice was not mine to make. Hindsight is such a great thing, but at the time we do what we can with what we have and know. I only wish I could have done more.<br /><br />I can't imagine the helplessness you're feeling right now Cindi, I wish you and your husband light and love, and I say a silent prayer that he will get through this difficult time. He is very lucky to have your support and know that even though he may not voice it, you being there through the difficult days is helping him even if in small ways each day. <br /><br />Stay strong, I hope life is kinder to your husband and he gets through this difficult time.Peggyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17598892582207477663noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4399105551382451067.post-67570840245065392742012-02-25T19:16:26.543+08:002012-02-25T19:16:26.543+08:00It's such a difficult situation to understand ...It's such a difficult situation to understand isn't it, I don't think I ever will quite understand it. The pain and the darkness.<br /><br />Big hugs to you too, I truly hope you find peace and comfort past the memories. xoPeggyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17598892582207477663noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4399105551382451067.post-78993855779954761432012-02-25T19:14:07.693+08:002012-02-25T19:14:07.693+08:00Thank you Jen. The kids have been my healing force...Thank you Jen. The kids have been my healing force for years. I love them like my own, and although it used to rip my heart out I do take comfort in knowing their mum would be super proud of them. They are a product of her energy and humour and kindness, I see her in them all the time. Mostly I feel terribly sad they won't remember her like I do, as they were too young. <br /><br />Thanks Jen. xoPeggyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17598892582207477663noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4399105551382451067.post-9329279673956035302012-02-25T19:11:27.712+08:002012-02-25T19:11:27.712+08:00Thank you Deb. As hard as it was typing those feel...Thank you Deb. As hard as it was typing those feelings it is quite cathartic. And your hugs help. xoPeggyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17598892582207477663noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4399105551382451067.post-36567965104621379922012-02-25T19:10:49.913+08:002012-02-25T19:10:49.913+08:00Thank you Kate. xoThank you Kate. xoPeggyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17598892582207477663noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4399105551382451067.post-68017097653424115732012-02-25T19:09:19.929+08:002012-02-25T19:09:19.929+08:00Oh Rebel, I feel for you. The regret is hard to sw...Oh Rebel, I feel for you. The regret is hard to swallow but I truly think you were hurt and hated seeing your Mum hurt. I don't see that as judging your sister's choices, rather you were being protective over your Mum's feelings. It can't of been easy for your Mum to see your sister go through such a difficult time, I am sure your Mum takes comfort in knowing you cared for her so deeply that you found it hard to deal with your sister's problem. <br /><br />It's okay to be sorry, it's actually human. The way I see it your sister wasn't the same sister you shared those childhood memories with anyway, I am sure you didn't hate her or her memory of back then. We do some shitty things to our loved ones in difficult times, but at the crux of it all you loved her to bits despite what you said or how you acted, and the sister of your childhood would have known that. <br /><br />I feel for you. I have dealt with addiction in my family as a child, it does induce hate and shame and fear and hurt. We do the best we can with what we're dealt with. You protected your Mum, you should be very proud of that.<br /><br />Big hugs to you. xoPeggyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17598892582207477663noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4399105551382451067.post-50052372652091157452012-02-25T18:17:40.900+08:002012-02-25T18:17:40.900+08:00Wow Peggy. It must be so hard living with such dee...Wow Peggy. It must be so hard living with such deep regret. I'm hearing your pain. You've expressed it so beautifully. I'm truly hearing you. And wish I could give you a big hug. Lots of love. xxDeb @ Bright and Precioushttp://www.brightandprecious.com/noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4399105551382451067.post-54258528020235818932012-02-25T17:24:13.736+08:002012-02-25T17:24:13.736+08:00Thank you lovely. Right back at ya!Thank you lovely. Right back at ya!Peggyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17598892582207477663noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4399105551382451067.post-85315804855901700162012-02-25T17:23:42.170+08:002012-02-25T17:23:42.170+08:00You're right Bron. The wallpaper's coming ...You're right Bron. The wallpaper's coming down. xoPeggyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17598892582207477663noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4399105551382451067.post-69205107203850106272012-02-25T17:23:15.522+08:002012-02-25T17:23:15.522+08:00Thank you Toni. xoThank you Toni. xoPeggyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17598892582207477663noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4399105551382451067.post-37332637683835672372012-02-25T17:22:51.486+08:002012-02-25T17:22:51.486+08:00Oh Reannon, that is so terribly sad. Terribly sad....Oh Reannon, that is so terribly sad. Terribly sad. I know this won't change your thoughts but I don't doubt you were a beautiful sister and what you did was more than enough. I am certain you were the sister she needed and more. I understand your pain at seeing her boys without their mother, nothing reduces that. But I hope you take comfort in knowing your sister would be absolutely proud of your concern and love for her boys. <br /><br />And I am certain even without you telling her all of this, she knows. You can still tell her you know. Write her a letter and read it out to her, she is listening. <br /><br />Big huge hugs to you Reannon. Thank you for reaching out. xoPeggyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17598892582207477663noreply@blogger.com